December 2011
182 posts
Bleed Black
AFI
I am exploring the inside.
I find it desolate.
I do implore these confines now as they penetrate,
“Recreate me.”
I’m hovering throughout time.
I crumble in these days.
I crumble, cannot, I cannot find reflection in these days.
(If you listen,) Listen, listen
(Listen close,) Beat-by-beat,
(You can hear when the heart stops,)I saved the pieces
(When it broke,) and ground them all to dust.
I am destroyed by the inside.
I disassociate.
I hope to destroy the outside.
It will alleviate and elevate me.
Like water flowing into lungs, I’m flowing (through these days.)
Like morphine drops through, through deadened veins, I’m numbing in these days.
So!
(If you listen,) Listen, listen
(Listen close,) Beat-by-beat,
(You can hear when the heart stops,)I saved the pieces
(When it broke,) and ground them all to dust.
I know what died that night.
It can never be brought back to life, once again, I know.
I know what died that night.
It can never be brought back to life, once again, I know.
I know I died that night and I’ll never be brought back to life.
Once again, I know.
I know I died that night and I’ll never be brought back to life.
Once again, I know.
(If you listen,) Listen, listen
(Listen close,) Beat-by-beat,
(You can hear when the heart stops,)I saved the pieces
(When it broke,) and ground them all to dust.
So!
(If you listen,) Listen, listen
(Listen close,) It dies Beat-by-beat,
(You can hear when the heart stops,)I saved the pieces
(When it broke,) and ground them all to dust.
“I believe humanity was born from conflict. Maybe that’s why in all of us lives a dark side. Some of us choose to embrace it. Some have no choice. The rest of us fight it. But in the end, it’s as natural as the air we breathe. At some point, all of us are forced to face the truth. Ourselves. For me, that day has come. I was 18 when I faced a man who chose to embrace his dark side, and by doing so, he took my humanity. Every day since I have put on a mask to hide what now suffocates me. The truth. And nothing speaks louder than the truth.”
—
-Penelope Garcia
Criminal Minds
———I don’t think there has ever been a quote that so speaks to the inner workings of my mind and experience. Not trying to be morbid or depressing. I feel such comfort that obviously someone else out there shares this reality.
November 2011
20 posts
“I’m sick of just liking people. I wish to god I could meet someone I could respect”
—JD Salinger
Euphoria Take My Hand
Glasvegas
Euphoria (Take My Hand)
Glasvegas
Harsh Realms
Tom Gabel
<3 Song #1:
I’m waking up in night terror
Can’t stop the future
Keeps pushing me ahead
I feel the weight of the world crushing down on me
And time seems so linear
Decisions seem so absolute
Yeah it’s a harsh realm
Yeah it’s a harsh realm
Don’t abandon me
Don’t abandon me
There’s a million things to get done today
I can’t come down, I can’t think straight
You give a little bit of time everyone you meet
And what do you say for yourself?
How much money do you need
To give yourself a sense of security?
“We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.”
—Oscar Wilde
